Hi darling ones! This is the first letter of the year and also the first one I'm writing in English. Or at least the first one in many years. Maybe some of your have been here since way back when I did that free email food styling course?
This past year I've been called into making quite a lot of changes in my business. Some stranger than others. I've felt this ping to transition back to English for a while, but the logical part of my brain has been trying hard to talk me out of it 😅
There are so many things I don't understand at the moment, but I trust there is a reason I need to change these things. Making paradoxical moves is after all one of the core principles of intuitive business.
How was your holiday? Did you get some time for yourself to just be? ♥️
We had a ton of family visits, so after New Years Kristoffer and I needed at least a week of not seeing or talking to anyone. We barely even spoke to each other 😂 Except when it came to deciding which movie to watch or have you seen a puzzle piece with a bit of green and yellow and white on it?
I've been spending some time reflecting on the year that has been and catching up on inspiring reads (ordered a whole bunch of new books that I'm excited to dive into). We've had a fire going pretty much every evening, which has felt really cozy, and I even managed to get out skiing a couple of times.
Usually around this time of year I'm diving head first into work, full of ambition and eager to look forward.
But 2021 was such a tough year for us. We had several miscarriages, I struggled financially with my business and felt very lonely working from home during a pandemic.
In many ways 2021 felt like a perpetual first trimester, and for those of you who have every been pregnant, you know what that's like.
The constant nausea and hormonal depression is a struggle even when you know there's a healthy baby on the other side of it. But when there's not, and when you know in your body something is wrong, the worry can become almost obsessive.
To receive the bad news was such a heartbreak for us every time, and I just couldn't see how I would ever pull myself out of that sadness. Meanwhile you're somehow expected to carry on with life like nothing happened. When talking to friends I realized that multiple miscarriages is so much more common than I thought.
How come we don't talk about that? And how come we are so afraid to share the news of the baby before we're "certain" it will stick?
My heart goes out to all of you who have experienced loosing a baby, and everyone who quietly suffers with morning sickness or worry or hormonal depression, while at the same time trying to manage their jobs and family and commitments.
As you can imagine, carry on with business with usual has been impossible. I feel like the events of last year has catapulted me into a massive life transformation, where I have no choice but to move forward from a more heart-centered place.
With the light returning little by little every day, I feel myself becoming happier and more excited about life again. I've decided to allow this year to be about finding joy and doing the things that makes me feel alive and centered.
Regardless of what you've been through this past year, I hope that 2022 will bring you closer to yourself and to your heart ♥️
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