God has been dealing with me about arrogance and assertiveness. But hold on cause it's not what you think!
I wrote this lil snippet of what I was starting to feel back in December and pushed it to the side because I got interrupted. Here is what I wrote though.
I was prepping for dinner and something came over me and I had to stop and write on it. Something has been bugging me for a long while now. I've mentioned it in passing to a few people and I've said it to others when I just couldn't take anymore.
Here it is.
There seems to be a wave hitting across, at least my circle, that involves just non-stop talking. I may be the only person taking notice in my personal relationships but I have a strong feeling others are seeing it too. What is going on? Why do so many people feel the need to just non-stop chatter?
It could be because I've done these silence fasts that I'm noticing it so much now. One thing has become increasingly clear though. There is an immense arrogance tied to people who never stop talking…
That was when I got interrupted and put the writing to the side to come back to. That is until today.
I just so happened to be praying and seeking God when I was given confirmation on some information I sort of knew deep down. Like it was swirling around in there but I wasn't sure if it was just me being cautious or if there was more to it. I'll get to all that in a few moments though.
So since I wrote that stuff down about the non-stop chatter, I've been becoming increasingly aware of how people act. Especially, those who have a sense of arrogance and pride about themselves. It's very obvious too. They need to be the center of attention. It's not that they just want to be. Though let's face it-it's that as well. But there is an absolute need for them to have everyone's focus on them. They are either constantly talking, and/or "teaching" everyone everything. Because they know it all about every single topic. They cut people off. They gossip about others. They nitpick every little thing others do. Any topic that is spoken of, they've got the answers. And if someone comes at them and doesn't back down, they come at them even harder until they are certain that person isn't backing from their stance no matter what.
It's arrogance. It's pride. They will even convince themselves, or at least tell others, they are just trying to help. What they are truly doing though is tearing down the confidence in others and doing it under the guise of helping.
So going over this with God. I'm like, Lord is that me? Tell me straight. Do I come across this way? Am I this way? Do others see me this way? Because I don't like it when I see it in others. Especially, when they make someone look foolish and hurt them in doing so.
Let me say this before I get to the answer. I second guess myself a lot ya'all. If I see a character flaw in another that I don't like, I will ask God if I'm like that in any way and if I am to help me fix that. Because I do not want to be representing God wrong. And people will turn away from God because you hurt them. So it's something I'm very aware of and I want to fix anything within me that hurts people for no reason.
Now sometimes the truth hurts but it needs said and that's something different. But to just put people down and destroy their confidence, I'm not here for it. And if that's in me, I want rid of it immediately. I've also since last year been so careful as to how I represent God in any way. So what I write, speak, and put out there, I'm cautious of that stuff. I never ever want to do anything that misleads others nor do I want to do anything that will separate myself from God. And to be honest, I'm now glad I have that within me. Yes, it holds me back some but I'd rather be 1000% sure that I'm saying and doing the right thing. Then just be out here spewing lies and leading people astray.
It's not only the unsaved whose going to go to hell. It's also going to be self-proclaimed Christians. Look up those verses! They should terrify you because they do me and I'm thankful for it! We are not to fear but when it comes to representing God wrong, you should be afraid!
So with that all being said. I asked repeatedly, Lord is this something that is within me as well?
And He told me and did so on repeat, because I gotta keep asking and getting the same answer. Thank You Lord for being patient with me!
But He said, arrogance and directness are not the same. I named off situations I have been in where I thought I may have over- stepped or came across in a way I wasn't trying to. And He would ask me, "Was that being arrogant or were you speaking truth?" And I'd go onto something else and He would ask, "Were you being cocky or were you being direct?" I'd see the situations playing out. And then He told me speaking truth about Him is what is important. He continually reassured me that I was not harboring a spirit of arrogance but assertiveness.
Now there are times He has told me to tame my tongue and to be softer in my approach and I thought of that as well. He reminded me that I still spoke truth and it was more my delivery of the words and not the spirit of pride behind it.
So after this conversation I started thinking again about this dream I had of the white python with the pink eyes. I had been thinking about it randomly for a few days. But today it all came out. I started remembering the time frame in which that dream occurred. I started thinking on what that sneaky snake was doing in my dream. Which brings me to what I'm ready to share.
I now know who the white python with the pink eyes is and it was much closer than I originally thought. It's not political this time. It's in the form of religion.
This is for the serpent…
God told me you tested me and you found me solid. He repeated it several times. That's ok, please keep testing as we are supposed to test the spirits and to look out for false prophets. Test me anytime in that regard. Anytime.
1 John 4: 1-6-Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, for many false prophets have gone out into the world. By this you know the Spirit of God: every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God, and every spirit that does not confess Jesus is not from God. This is the spirit of the antichrist, which you heard was coming and now is in the world already. Little children, you are from God and have overcome them, for he who is in you is greater than he who is in the world. They are from the world; therefore they speak from the world, and the world listens to them. We are from God. Whoever knows God listens to us; whoever is not from God does not listen to us. By this we know the Spirit of truth and the spirit of error.
God also gave me a warning for you. If you attempt to trip me up again, you're going to be dealt with and it's going to be done so harshly. Do you hear me?!? I hope you do loud and clear. Because I may not know in which way you have tried but that is His warning for you. I'd take it to heart.
Now I know why the Python was searching and hunting. Even though you think of yourself so highly, you were revealed as a serpent. Beware! That's all I'm going to say to you, beware!
And I rebuke you and that spirit of pride and deception that is upon you in the name of my Lord and Savior Christ Jesus!
Arrogance is a character flaw that is laden with pride.
Proverbs 16:18-Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall.
Proverbs 8:13-The fear of the Lord is hatred of evil. Pride and arrogance and the way of evil and perverted speech I hate.
James 4:6-But he gives more grace. Therefore it says, "God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble."
Proverbs 16:5-Everyone who is arrogant in heart is an abomination to the Lord; be assured, he will not go unpunished.
Should I continue?
Back to that original thought as well, sometimes it's good to just be quiet. Sometimes it's good to be quiet for a long while. Often it's good to sit back and watch and listen.
Exodus 14:14-The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent."
James 1:19-Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger;
Proverbs 17:28-Even a fool who keeps silent is considered wise; when he closes his lips, he is deemed intelligent.
Proverbs 29:11-A fool gives full vent to his spirit, but a wise man quietly holds it back.
Proverbs 11:12-Whoever belittles his neighbor lacks sense, but a man of understanding remains silent.
Psalm 46:10-"Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!"
Silence isn't bad. It's often necessary until it's not. You learn by listening. You will never learn anything if you keep doing all the talking. Just shhh for a lil bit. Let other people speak. Don't talk over people.
I struggle with feeling the need to share a story about myself when others share because I want the connection. That's my way to connect. But this is something I'm working on as well because it can come across as you not caring what they have said but just want to be heard. If I've ever done this to you, I promise I heard you and wanted to hear you and I was simply trying to let you know that I understand because I've been there. It truly wasn't to cut you off or hurt you or disregard you. If anyone has ever felt that way, I sincerely apologize.
I'm telling you these silence fasts I've been doing have truly grounded me. I look forward to them. I really do and I hope to be doing them more and more. There is so much we can take in by just silencing our own voice and listening.
Well that was a lot to say in one post. I apologize it drug on but I really felt the need to speak on this and to do so tonight before it gets pushed to the side again. I hope you have all had a blessed Saturday. Remember that God loves you and so don't I, my friends. I wish you well and wish peace for you and your household. God bless you my family.
Galatians 5:22-23-But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.
Tiffany 


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