and if I'm here blogging you can be sure I'm procrastinating doing some more serious writing due elsewhere.
January went by in a flash, and any half hearted plans I made for it went totally by the wayside because January and I have a really twisted relationship that ultimately goes nowhere and is incredibly unsatisfying for us both, not that I think January gives as big a fuck about it as I do.
To be fair I started this year differently, instead of making futile promises to myself that I knew I wouldn't keep and making plans and goals that would only make me feel bad as the end of the month came closer having spent most of it in the foetal position, wrapped in a duvet, binge watching Happy Valley....and yes that DID happen...I instead put no pressure on myself to do anything . Nothing, nada, zilch, wellou, and it was fundamentally the best decision I could have made for myself.
And the beauty of it is that I've entered February feeling energised, if of course you ignore the fact that I've spent most of the day sat at my laptop watching YouTube and drinking more cups of tea than is heathy.
For full transparency the only reason I'm writing this blog post is because I caught the start of a writing sprint online and if I'm doing that then I can't also be writing the article I've only written thirteen words of since about 1pm this afternoon. It never fails to amaze me that the one thing that brings me the greatest joy to do is also the thing I resist the most and no matter how much I try I can't make it make any reasonable sense.
So, do you actually have any plans this year I hear you ask...
Well yes I do, thank you very much, but the thing with me is, if I say it, I will feel compelled on some level to rebel against doing it. So I'm playing my cards close and just getting on with it.
The only thing I will admit to wanting to do is blog more to keep myself accountable...and if you believe that then I will refer you, my dear reader to my previous statement above.
And with this done there is no other excuse than to go away and write the thing I should be writing....
The only other thing to say is that, while goals, intentions and plans are good, don't be too hard on yourself, keep your expectations reasonable and don't beat yourself up if you need to move the goalposts a bit, or toss them off the pitch altogether!
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